Persistence.....is it?

Persistence!

Aaaah! The mere mention of the word makes me long to be obedient towards it, like we do with our favorite teacher at school. We want to be the cynosure of her eyes and thereby follow every instruction and be in her good books. So far so good, i.e. life.  Either we laze around and enjoy the status quo or gear up and face the roller coaster ride that each of us goes through by virtue of being a human. Many a times we want to “take it easy”, or “will see when the situation demands”. I count it as lack of not just inspiration but lack of persistence. I maybe inspired by a number of things or people in a day, go to sleep each night thinking that I will get up tomorrow morning and follow this routine. However, what follows is, the morning never comes at the scheduled time. Lo and behold I am already lagging behind! However hard I try to catch up now the persistence in getting up early gets murdered somewhere. Another day same story and I am still struggling to come to terms with yesterday’s guilt.

This may sound trivial, cliché and lacking novelty but the first step in being successful in any field of your life is discipline. We say that those who don’t break rules do not enjoy life. Enjoyment is a bubble. Once it bursts we find ourselves back to gaining the same amount of calories that we promised to burn at new years’ eve, or calling our parents more frequently or staying connected with our friends.  Once a dear teacher (whom I had a huge crush on) told me that you need to be more assertive in life. By his parameters I was docile and meek. Over the years I feel that I am pretty easy on myself and love the status quo to the core, somewhere also hating myself for doing so. Not that the present situation is unpleasant or unhappy, but nourishment for the soul and mind is what one craves for. The heart seems content and the mind gets boggled every now and then. It’s a constant fight between the multiple me’s - one enjoying the present day bliss, another vying to follow a soulful pursuit, one with a chain of thoughts that tries to delve into the realms of being a humanitarian, yet another one with a thirst for accomplishing dreams that jostle with each other. And then a deep conversation with conscious, sub-conscious travails of mind that pacifies you for the time being until you are back to status quo! Huh!

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